STFU N00B!

Sat, 02 Dec 2006 05:46:27 GMT

I just had to

hahhaa

RAR RAR RAR STICK IT IN YOUR BRA

Thu, 16 Nov 2006 15:45:50 GMT

Closing date for JET is the 1st of December.

Still deciding what to do

its either buy a house or go to japan

I should just apply. I might not even get accepted.

AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

screw this, everyone else should just die and I'd have the whole world to myself.

moo moo mooooooo

What else...nothing muuuuuuuuuch

Have a pirate party to attend on saturdaaaaay, I have to dress as a pirate. yay

Not really. not in the mood for dressing up

not in the mood for anything really!

I just want the holidays to be here, where there are no kids doing things to annoy me, and I can sit alone in my house and play wow. Possibly play my music really really loud, swing on my pole.

AAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
>.

YAY

Sun, 12 Nov 2006 09:59:28 GMT

Okay, so most interesting news so far?

I entered the She Moves pole dancing competition on Friday. I went in the Advanced category...and guess wat!

I WON

AWWWWWWWWWW YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I won a pole, which I shall get eventually, also a bottle of champagne, a calander, aaaand a bunch of roses.

BUT A POLE!!

AW YEAAAAAAAAAH

And I just scoped out my room, there is PLEANTLY of space to swing around and stuff, I'll just have to put a few things flat and we'll be in business!

Pics comeing soon (after I get my lazy ass in gear)

Sat, 23 Sep 2006 05:47:44 GMT

yay

1 more week till holidays!! Work has been really trying, because of a few little shits. Seriously, some of them just need to be shaken, shaken like you shake a hairspray can.

Went to the gym a few nights ago....my legs STILL hurt -_- So I haven't been going for fear for completly destroying my legs.

I am earning money now.....and it doesn't seem like much. I dunnooooooooooooo, it's like....now that I am earning "real" money I dont want to spend any of it if necessary, and I feel guilty about spending it. Like I bought a few comics, and as I was paying I was thinking "This is about 3 hours of some kid not doing what I am asking, 10 mins of a kid doing some work, and about 5 hours of me worrying if a kid is finally going to snap and completly fuck me up."

Doesn't seem worth it...But then I think of all my lovely kiddies and I smile, and there are so many :3 It's interesting how just one kid (and yes I mean ONE KID) can ruin the day for everyone. Ah, but it is worth it.

I am still tossing up wether or not to go to Japan, and I have to decide SOON because apps close soon! o_O I know that it will be good money...and I will probably have a blast over there...buuuuut I am pretty sure I am very capable of getting very very homesick :(

Feeling kinda gross at the moment, I wanted to clean my room, and have wanted to for a few weeks...but I look at it and just think "Fuck it. i wanna sleep" buuuuuuuuh laaaaaaaaazzzzzzzzzzzzyyyyyyyyyyy

I think I need to have a major "Throw everything away" session, because I have so much crap....I cant put anything away anymore. But my parents always to the guilty thing on me "Why dont you just wear this at home?"

NYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaa

I think I'll do it in secret hehehe.

I feel sick, i'm gonna stop looking at the computer screen now.

<3 <3 <3

Thu, 31 Aug 2006 15:40:49 GMT

seriously thinking about doing some exercise again....but real exercise. I'll probably start pole dancing again but at a new studio.

buuuuut I'm thinking of doing other stuff too....like...I dunno a martial art or something. Or....*shudder* a gym. but i have NFI about gym stuff....sooooo I'll probably stick to pole dancing. But gym you get exercise....kinda getting....slow and unfit, not fat, just unfit. soooo I dunno.

Gotta get some moneys first....pole dancing is expensive (if I'm gonna do that) T_____________T

Thats all

boring post huh?

OH HO HO HO

Mon, 21 Aug 2006 09:01:07 GMT

HAhahhahaa

today when I checked my email I got a msg from Gaia saying someone had tried to log into my account 9 times XD NINE TIMES they tried to guess my password, guess it's pretty good that it's so obscure!!

The account was then blocked for a few minutes.

AAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHHA

So I went to check my message box to see if there were any abusive letters in there, alas none T_T

Tue, 08 Aug 2006 11:00:03 GMT

I just realised

My brother wont be here for my graduation.

One of the most important people in my life and he isn't goint to be there.

I really wanted him to be there, but he cant.

This makes me cry.

Oh yes, I am done

Tue, 01 Aug 2006 09:05:32 GMT

I have officially completed my course.

Oh yes

It feels good. I have finished something, one part of my life is done and I am beginning something new...though now I want to go back to uni...AH NEVER MIND!! Some other time, when I am sick of working.

Right now I am filling out my graduation information, and OMG check out the example they use!!!
This is for pronounciation of names and the example they give:
(Eg: Hough rhymes with ‘Huff’, Liew sounds like ‘Li-You’, Eu Jin is pronounced ‘You-gene’)
AHAHAHAHAHA They use Liew, this amuses me :)

Hmmmm I am trying to figure out how someone would read Li-Ahn I mean it looks pretty fucking obvious to me, but if I get called Li- Anne I will be fucking pissed of, my name isn't fucking Li-Anne, it's Li- AAAAAAAAHHhhhhhhhhhhhhnnnnnnnn like AHHHHHnnnnnn~

People are retarded.

What ellllllse....nothing!!

I am sooooooo sleepy ima take a well deserved nap!!

<3 <3

My sympathy only goes so far...

Tue, 25 Jul 2006 11:07:23 GMT

Okaaaay

So. Second day working at my neeeeeew place, and my first big idea is that yeap...my sympathy for these kids is there, but I'm not going to be all simpering or whatever.

Today is what I would call my first MINOR MINOR incident, and it really got me thinking. "How exactly do these kids look at the world?" I thought this as I was talking to a student (who was basically bummed and honestly being a little shit and not doing any work) and I looked outside and thought "Woah the rain and sunshine look so beautiful, it's all golden and warm." Then I looked at my student and realised that he probably just sees nothing, just rain and a few cars.

These kids see nothing that I see, their whole perspective on the world is warped and and different, and fair enough, they have had a hard life, really REALLY hard, and thats all bad and what not, but what makes me get a little bit pissed off (or loose sympathy for these kids) is that I have met two or three kids in mainstream school in exactly the same situations as them and they dont go around digging themselves into deeper holes. They dont use their centerlink money on drugs or expensive mobile phones, they buy school books and FOOD, they dont let their past life completly rule them. Instead they look at their life and past and go "I DON'T want that, so I'm going to do something about it." and that's just it, they DO something.

Some of these kids do nothing. So where they are and where they will be will be directly affected by what they do, and they dont realise that they can have it better, but they have to WORK for it. That's a big scary word for these kids WORK, and they have to do stuff they dont like, I dont like getting up in the morning but I still do. I didn't like doing assignments but I did them because if I didn't I would fail uni and become a total retard.

These kids have no life planning skills, they only think about now and the immediate future, and that is a huuuuuge problem.

SO. Yes, I feel really really sorry for them, and often horrified and disgusted by what has been done to them, but I still think that in Australia if you try hard enough you can always get something better. Sure these kids are disadvantaged in HUUUUUUUUGE ways, but they have it good compared to kids in a lot of middle eastern and asian countries, where you dont get support from the government, and there are no hostels or places street kids can go, you are basically left to die and rot on the street, and the only way you can get money is through real crime and prostitution, o one gives a shit in those countries. That kinda makes me feel shitty at the Australian kids. They have no idea how good they have it compared to some other kids in other countries. Aussie kids are too caught up in their own "Bad-assed" image, where lots of kids in asia and the middle east are mainly caught up with survival, I suppose that is a huge difference.

I suppose what they do it up to their personality, but really these kids think they are tough and smart and that they know everything and that the world revolves around them, but really in a way these are the weaker kids, because they haven't been able to just say "No way I'm not going to live like this I'm going to change" kids who do that are I suppose stronger (in my eyes anyways).

But at the same time they are attending this school, so that is a pretty good step. So yeah, while I do feel for these kids (because no one should EVER have to go through their situation) they loose sympathy from me if they dont even try. I mean sure if they are trying and trying and circumstances just keep fucking them up, fair enough they deserve all the help I can give them, but if they dont want to make something of their life, then there is nothing that I can really do and I am not going to stress over a kid who does not want my or anyone elses help. That may be harsh, but it is totally warrented.

SO. What does that mean for the average public?........I guess it means that people who haven't been through tonnes of shit in their life and do nothing and whine and bitch and complain about stuff GET NO SYMPATHY FROM ME.GET OFF YOUR FAT ASSES AND WORK FFS.

Anyways enough ranting about that.
ONE little problem that I have with the place I work is that after working there for a day, my hands always feel really really dirty. I DUNNOOOOOOO it's not just me, I mean I go to wash my hands and the water turns BLACK o_O eeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww maybe I should just not touch stuff...aaaaanyways that is unimportant.

OH! AND ANOTHER THING. Why is it that whenever I start prac or like this new job my eczema EXPLODES and I get rashes ALL over me. AND why is it that students ALWAYS asume that I have hickeys all over my neck (Mainstream AND this new school) honestly it really buggs me. EVERY prac I have had some kid has said to me "Miss are they hickeys?" which indecating my eczema on my neck.

NO THEY ARE, IT'S A VERY ITCHY RASH LEAVE ME ALONE GODDAMNIT!!

*cries* EVERY prac, and now this school T______________T just leave me alone! I'm very sensitive you bastards! T_T

OH!! And my boss has/had to go for a meeting and the meeting is called the "FFS" meeting. I teehee-din my head about that....though it might be "FSS" not sure, I teehee-d anyways :P

Anyways, I think that I will be able to fit into this job, as long as no one tries to attack me physically I'll be fine ^_______^ personal insults dont really affect me anymore yay TY BOBBY AND DAVE FOR MAKING ME IMMUNE TO THAT, YOUR RELENTLESS TEASING PAID OFF YOU SICK SADISTIC BASTARDS -_-

I am kinda liking doing something that I spent 4 years in uni for, and I feel like I am doing something worth while, even if it is listening to a kid go on about how nothing matters anymore (if he wern't such a hard ass he'd be TOTALLY emo -_-) If I can just help these kids a bit I'll be really pleased and happy with this job, I can see this being really rewarding in terms of learning about teaching and learning about myself, maybe making me a little less naive about what happens in Australia too.

This job is going to be hard, but fantastic. I can tell that, and I hope that I can cope with it because I would hate to be fired. This job is totally awesome so far (lol see if I say that in a few weeks). I still have to get my bearing and become comfortable there, only then will I be able to see if I can really help these kids, or if I am just a total liability to the school. I hope I'm not. I want to help these kids because they need it, they NEED help, and I want to do something for them but yes, I'm not stupid they only get help if they want it. I think if I can cope with this job it is going to be so much more rewarding than working in a mainstream school where advantaged kids stare at me and dont want to do any work just because they are little SHITS.

GO ME!

I am progressing in life, and it feels good. Really, really good.

Thu, 13 Jul 2006 03:46:35 GMT

Wheeeeeeee I am updating at work because I have nothing else to do until 1:00.

Sooooooooo what's been happening with meeeee. I have achieved new jobness! That's right no longer will I be a bum working in a fun and tax-free environment T_T I have a new job and I start on the 24th this month. It is my first ever REAL job.

I got the job from Joe ie loten who told his mum who worked at a school that I was a new graduating teacher. I visited the school and the rest snowballed from there. Basically the school is for problem kids who have been expelled from mainstream school and cant function in them. It's really interesting...also fucking scary, and exciting.

SO! As of the 24th Elaine will be part of the Australian work force YaaaaY (boo)Getting this job has meant that I have had to put off going to Japan for a year though because basically the condidtion was that I cant leave the school half way through the year. Soooooo japan will have to wait until maybe 2008 :( Which makes me a little sad, but I figuere in 2008 I will be 25 and that is still youngish! It'll be fiiiiiiiiiine. And maybe when I come back after 2008 the new trains will be ready! So I dont have to suffer through another year of useless construction.

I still plan to go to Japan at the end of the year though just for a holiday., buy lots of crap! See lots of things. Mum wants me to go to the UK with her, buuuuut UK = boooooooring, I have no interest in going to London AT ALL.

What else has been going on. mmmmmmmm nothing really.

I intend to go into town nowish and buy some cases for my electronic things that I always carry around with me because they are all getting scratched :( Sooo I will go spend more of my hard earned moneys :(

I will miss working at PTIC, the environment is so fun and I love all the people that work here, I have so much fun here talking with my boss and the other tutors :( I wish I could work here longer, but I really need to start getting stuff together and this job just doesn't fit the bill of a "stable" and constant source of income.

I am deciding weather or not to get a credit card when I start the new job. I am leaning towards no, because I think I know how I will be with a credit card, like....I will spend too much, I mean I can get a credit limit, buuuuut I dunno. I dont want to give myself that temptation until I am into a steady pattern of spending and saving.

I am starting to get back into my good habit of saving now too. So I have managed to save a good amount since starting working at PTIC again, but getting this new job will give me more money and then I can get MOOOORE interest on my super awesome bank account. But I think I have to change my account because it might still be a student one, but if I fail this fucking unit I did last semester then I will be still a student.

I have also decided that if I fail this unit I am NOT going to do another stupid english unit, I am going to take Japanese because that last unit is an elective and I have basically had enough of reading books I hate. SO in a way I hope I fail so I can do a unit of japanese but I also hope that I dont fail because then I have to pay more HECS and I fail and it means I have to do uni, enrolments are closed, but the results come out on he 17th or something DAMN YOU UNIVERSITY!

Soooooo that is my life at the moment, not very interesting is it?

Oh well

<3 <3 <3

Mon, 03 Jul 2006 11:26:59 GMT

Today was the funeral of Sofia Rodriguez.

I hope she rests well, and that her family can pull through this and remember her as they want.

I dont like it how something like this could happen, espeically to someone so defenseless. It makes me angry and sick.

I really really hope that something is done to prevent an incident like this happening again, it should never, ever happen again.

Things are making sense....sort of....in a fucked up way.

Mon, 12 Jun 2006 17:30:12 GMT

Okaaaaaay as time wears on I think things are starting to make more sense for me in terms of career. At the moment I am shit scared of starting work and starting to be responsible and I have beaten myself up over this time and time again.

I am slowly beginning to realise that I am just a coward, why? OBE. Outcomes Based Education. I CANNOT work comfortably with this system of education and I am so scared of fucking up a kids education because of this programm. I am not comfortable with it and I dont even WANT to start assessing children with those vague level descriptors. There HAS to be another way! There must! What good is an education programm that teacher's aren't comfortable with, especially NEW graduation teachers.

And why was this implemented in the first place? To get rid of TEE/TER? So kids wont be stressed and less competative? Weeellllll kids will always find a way to be stressed and competative, I've even heard of bullying in schools because some kids in the class wern't up to the "recommended level."

I can sum up the current state of the OBE plan in 3 simple words: It sucks balls.

I dont want to work in this system. SO what am I going to do?.....I'm fleeing to Japan. To escape one more year of OBE crapness, maybe when I get back it will have developed more, I am being hopeful, but that's all I can do right? I have to have a career, the pressure from my parents is AMAZING, sometimes I wish I could just say "You know what? I'm not going to start work as a career yet and I'm going to work a mundane crappy job." *sigh* the pressure is starting to get to me.

What is ALSO getting to me is the decay of my mental state, and I think it is realted to all this...anxiety? I am feeling over my future. I'm having constant nightmares and am slowly sinking back into the emotional state I was in highschool, but I know that I wont go that far because this time I have loving people around me who will support me and not let me go that far.

I never want to put Dave through what I did when we first started going out. Never again, I refuse to do that to someone I love so dearly.

Soooo basically I have decided to say stfu to my parents and apply for substitute teaching, then in July next year go to Japan and spend 1 lonely year trying to learn some responsibility, and that is my plan for now (see how I conveniently dodge the OBE??)

*sigh*

Sometimes I wish that I could just earn money through sleeping.

Tue, 06 Jun 2006 16:05:14 GMT

So whats been goin on??

NOthing really! Att he moment I am drinking because I'm not sleepy and I need to be. So here I am with a bottle of Canadian Club and my GOD I forgot how much this stuff just burns, so I just chugged one gulp down and regretted it -_-

Yeap!

Next one will be slower -_________- MUCH slower.

I've pretty much decided that I am going to japan for 1 year, unless something happens to stop me...and there might be a lot that would stop me.
I dunno maybe I should just get my act together and get a job here, I mean I've practically had a full time job at the center and it hasn't been so bad I'm getting used to the hours but oh the responsibility of teaching in a school T________________T

I had planned to make this some sort of good update

But I just realised that I cant be fucked!

HAHA FUCKERS!

nooo I love you alllll <3

Nightmares A-Hoy!

Mon, 15 May 2006 06:43:02 GMT

Okay I have had nightmares for 4 nights in a row now. Each time I have woken up hot beyond reason, sweating, lying flat on my back with my arms crossed perfectly symetrically accross my chest.

And while I am used (somewhat used and slightly reluctantly accepting) to my nightmares, me waking up in this position has slightly freaked me out because USUALLY I curl up in a ball and wake up that way.

Also after I woke up after my nightmare last night and in the position I described before, I could not move my arms, and was crying. but what freaked me out the most was that I could swear that something was sitting on me and holding my arms down, and when I opened my eyes I swear I saw something there, for like....a split second, and it was looking down at me and i KNEW it was smiling and laughing at me.

I shall draw a picture of it.

So this thing was sitting on my chest holding my arms down and laughing at me, yep nice thing to wake up to aster a nightmare.

Now while this can be put down to remains of my dream, I didn't exactly dream of that thing, and so it can be put down to my imagination, but even so

WHY MUST MY IMAGINATION HATE ME????? T____________________________T

I hate being me sometimes.

Sun, 07 May 2006 16:25:16 GMT

WHAS GOIN OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONNNNNNNNN

I just read through like.....3 years of my lj....aaaaand I think I have changed

I AM MORE BORING

MORE JADED

TOO FAT TOO FURIOUS...

Anyways I dont really have anything interesting to say now for this journal, because I think I have calmed down somewhat over the years, less explosive angry and more like....smouldering rage.

hmmmmm

that and I cant be assed writing in this....maybe I need to make something new.

pffffffffffffffffffffffffffffft

I also noticed that like....50% of my journal is me complaining about assignments XD I STILL HATE THEM BUT NVM

what else.....i dunno, it's interesting to see how much I have changed.

I'm just so boring now.

Well better sleep

tutoring tomorrow

yay

*dies*

blah blah blah blah blah

Wed, 03 May 2006 13:12:00 GMT

Yesterday I realised how increadably lonely I am at uni T______T

For 4 years I've had Mai, Kirsten, Jackie, Nat and Steve with me. Now I'm doing this unit all by myself....I sit by myself in a corner...at a huge table...all isolated T_T

It's so lonely T_T

Mind you I wouldn't want to sit with a lot of the people in the class because I can tell that the are class A morons...especially one guy who just wont SHUT THE FUCK UP! GOD.

Soooooo anyways, yeaaah uni is lonely, but work is anything but! So many students....so little to talk about. Some of them just say nothing, and while I can understand that maybe they can't speak English very well....AT LEAST TRY.

MY GOD JUST TRY!

Don't sit there like a vegetable!

FUUUUUUUUUCK

anyways....angry yes.

That's all I have to whine about at the moment.

wah wah wah whinings of a bored person

Fri, 28 Apr 2006 12:48:11 GMT

So anyways nothing really interesting has been happening.

I started work again....and the ladies at PTIC then proceded to swamp me with students T_T
So many students....dying. Anyways I realised that I am no longer the Grammar guru I once was, and this was made painfully clear when a student asked me "what does for mean"

me: "uh....it's a preposition"
student: "what type of preposition?"
me: *retarded look on face*
student: "Is it directional?"
me: "hmmmmmHEY LOOK AT THAT!!" *jumps out window*

So now I have had to get all my grammar skillz back AND FAST, so I dont look stupid to my students which I am sure I do ANYWAYS.

So now I am the QUEEN of articles. I can tell you when and why an article is used! MWAHAHHAAA!!
Soon I will master prepositions again, and then will come the labelling of words in a sentence (I shudder at the thought)

bloody subject, verb, object, compliment bullshit.

WHO NEEDS TO LABLE THOSE ANYWAYS HUH???? KOREANS THAT'S WHO!

bloody Korean standardizing tests -__________- WE ARE NOT IMPRESSED

I watched a few episodes of Hikaru no Go at Dav's cos he got the DVDs, I still cant bring myself to watch all of it. I'll just cry and cry and cry. DAMN YOU HIKARU!

Meanwhile One Piece is proving to be a very VERY slow adventure in the anime world....as in the fansubs....are slow. But oh well. Hopefully in like a month I'll have GIGS of it to d/l and have a One Piece watching fest! AAAAAAAAAWWWWWW YEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH

I have come to the conclusion that I no longer try to look good, and this may be a bad thing. When I was in uni 1st year etc etc etc I always wore make-up and tried to look nice, now it's just....whatever (I AM SQUALL) SOooooooooooooooooo I'm thinking maybe I should make the effort again.

So today I did.

The result: I had not enough money for petrol (about 5 dollars) and the petrol man let me just pay what I had.

Now....whether or not this is due to the fact that I looked nice or not is questionable, but it leads to my next point of when one looks good you get wanted and unwanted attention. Usually unwanted because I'm anti-social...but it does have some perks I guess.....but I still just cant be fuuuuuuuuuuuucked dressing up, but Dave brought up a good point that when I start working I will have to look respectable everyday, so I should enjoy looking like a bum while I can.

This is a valid point.

KUDOS TO DAVE.

Today my parents were talking about different chinese faces and I was pretty much "wtf?" the whole time. Then they told me that certain types of chinese have different faces this all came about by my mum commenting "She has such a cantonese face"

Me: "Cantonese face?"
Mum and Dad: Yeah. Cantonese face
Me: What's a cantonese face?
Mum: Well you know what a Haka face is
Me: Yeah, flat with a jutting jaw
Mum: Well cantonese people have distinctive faces too
Me: o_O
Dad: Bobby has a cantonese face
Me: He has a chinese face
Dad: Yes, but it's cantonese is style.
Me: O_O Does Kid have a Cantonese face?
Mum: no he doesn't
Me: Who else has a cantonese face?
Mum: *Lists off randoms*
Me *cant see the similarities between those people*

In the end I left the converation feeling a whole lot more confused, slightly dirty and convinced my parents are crazy. Obviously I am not AZN enough to tell the diff between certain chinese races.

EASTER RABBIT CHOCOLATE AWWW YEAAAAAAHHHHHHHH

I dont wanna work tomorrowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww it means waking up early T_T

I went to a LAN on the weekend, it was mostly cgood. THATS RIGHT CGOOD THAT MEANS IT WAS CARROTGOOD GOT IT?? jeez anyways it was mostly good until my spine was destroyed by sleeping at a strange angle.....and OMG I WANTED TO SHOOT SOMEONE IN THE FACE....WITH A GUN....possibly filled with caltrops -_-

There was this guy...who was like.....epitomy of annoying-will-never-get-laid-nerd. AAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGG I cannot even BEGIN to describe how much he shit me. He would go ooooon and oooooooon about how good he was and how much something owned so much

OH MY GOD SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!S" fidshdi fohngnhpahieoplhegerlonhkszdh/dksgn SWOEg

*sigh*

I'm not going to give myself brain cancer by thinking about it anymore -_-

OH! AND to make things WORSE, my shoes fucking broke -_- the heel practically disintegrated. WTF So NOOOOOW I have to take it to the cobbler man and get them fixed. I'd buy myself a new pair of shoes to make myself feel better, but I have no money -_- Someone buy some shoes for me T_T

What else was interesting...mmm Karen is back. Yaaayyyyyyy, this makes me very happy :3 Oh and an interesting thing was that I had heard of the person who I went to the lans...house....wait lemme type that again. The person whose house I went to for the lan, knew Karen, and Karen actually mentioned him to be before a long time ago! Because I liked Transmetropolitan and Karen knew and told me about someone that got a cake of S.J...

HOW FUCKING COINCIDENTAL

Thank god back then I was very stand-offish so no embarrassing stories were ever swapped.

EVER SWAPPED. YES THAT MEANS YOU TWO I KNOW YOU CAN SEE THIS -__________-

I'm kinda hungry. My mum didn't make me dinner cos I had a big bowl of noodles at 3 something T______________T Maybe I'll make myself some Onigiri.

mmmmmmmmonigiri.

I think this was a successful update. So now I dont have to update for another 3 months.

OH YEAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH

OH WAIT!!!

THERE IS MORE.

I now know how families can be split up because of "outsiders" to the family -_- eg brother's in law etc etc etc. To put things short. I made my brother's girlfriend cry. Now at first I was really sympathetic and guilty and I felt really sorry for upsetting her, but the more I thought about it the more angry and pissed off I got about it.

BASICALLY she is a girly girl, and I'm....somewhat masculine, so I'm not so sensitive to....things, and I commented on a gift she had given to one of my parents ( didn't know she had given it to them) and I basically said that I thought they were scare and they scared the shit out of me when I heard them (they were wind chimes).

SO what happens? She goes home and cries. My brother calls me up saying "Hey did you know that those windchimes were a present from [insert name here]?"

Me: "No"

so my brother procedes to tell me how upset his g/f is and how I dont appreciate what she gives to me. At first I'm sorry and offer to apologise, but he says she is too upset at the moment and maybe the next time they come over and I say fine and hang up.

THEN I start to think aout it and get really shitty. I dont appreciate what she gives me? Okay the specific example was a book she lent me, I took the book, said thank you and returned it. WHAT THE FUCK ELSE WAS I SUPPOSED TO DO? Fucking throw a party? Jump up and down and squeal like a girl sending everlasting praises to her? It's a book, I said thank you, I told you how much I appreciated it, WHAT MORE DO YOU FUCKING WANT???

So basically, now I dont want to see her, I'm not going to apologise and now because of that I don't even want to see my brother because I know thta if he comes over she will too and I don't want to see her face, and if I do I'd probably be MORE horrible, then she really WILL have something to cry about.

Basically This leads to anothre gripe I have about girls. WHY ARE YOU SO FUCKING SENSITIVE??? FOR FUCKS SAKE I realise that I am being a hypocrite with getting worked up about this, but I dont go and fucking cry because someone said something about a gift I gave (and the gift wasn't even to me)

Maybe I'm an insensitive bitch, but really. I'm not being THAT unreasonable am I?

no matter what though, I know that I will have to deal with it if I want to stay close to my brother. This shits me, because I think that I am fine the way I am, so why the hell should I have to change? She's the one with the fucking psycho sensitivity problem, why can't SHE change -_-

*sigh*

I'll just have to crub my anger and be nice -_-

and that is my update.

*points below* WHAT A GREAT SONG! lol

heh heh heh

Sat, 22 Apr 2006 17:49:21 GMT

A long time ago I was part of the forum Gaia. I am now not!

However I decided to go back there and see what sort of devil spawn it had become, when I joined it was small and....relativly average in population.

This is NOT THE CASE ANYMORE. It had grown to monumental proportions with thousands of people, some okay...most retards I think.

So I glanced around a bit, only to realise that I own an "antique" item in the forum, a pair of chicky slippers from easter in 2003, i would sell them, but you know...to be a bastard I'm not.

Next I notice that my private messages are overflowing, bursting at the seams! so I go checkz them out. Most is just hello people just being nice, but a lot of them go along the lines of:

"OmG WhY Are YOU SqUEe!! IM SQuEe YoUR NOt SqUeE. WhY You ChOsE ThaT nAmE You BaSTaRd!"

exactly like that, lettering and all.

Now before I saw these I was going to delete my character and let someone else have the name Squee, but since I got these pms. I decided.....nope! Ima keep my chicky slippers AND keep my character. So they can take their bad capitalization and bad grammar somewhere else, cos I'm not feeling charitable, and to make it even better, I'm not going to log in again for another 3 years or so

MWAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAAAAAAAAAA

Oh internets you entertain me.

bored bored bored

Wed, 12 Apr 2006 15:55:30 GMT

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=5483749400114799168&q=matrix+dance&pl=true

Their arms and legs go KA-RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAZY

Tue, 04 Apr 2006 15:36:28 GMT

EVERYTHING I DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
I DOO IT FOR YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

....

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAA

such memories

Thu, 30 Mar 2006 15:29:04 GMT

I just realised something.

I dont have a "little black dress"

Suuuuure I have blace dresses, and an ABUNDANCE of black skirts and tops, but I dont have a tight, form-fitting "little black dress"

....

THIS WILL BE MY NEW MISSION!

(I'm lame)

YEAP! Playing OBLIVION!!!!!

Sun, 26 Mar 2006 19:21:27 GMT

So far so good!!

HOWEVER. I have heard some rumors that once you reach a high level the game becomes unreasonably difficult...hmmm...we'll see (they are probably right) I am playing on the lowest possible difficulty setting :) heheeee cos I suck.

I have come accross something though that makes me a but annoyed. I have gone into two dungeons and TWO of them...I am missing a key, I have explored EVERY NOOK AND CRANNY...no key. These places aren't for quests...sooooo wtf??? *sigh* this game doesn't want me to progress T___T

Other-wise it is a highly entertaining game!!

Wed, 22 Mar 2006 08:31:33 GMT

Today is a lovely day.

I feel sick, tired and sore.

But the weather is so nice. Ah, such a nice day ^________^

News news news

Tue, 21 Mar 2006 16:05:54 GMT

I love the news.

Cyclone Larry damages hundreds of homes and businesses.

Farmers loose their crops that cost thousands of dollars, and are important to Australian economy, corn, bananas, avacado, sugar. Thousands of people will loose their jobs and the clean up will take months....

BUT THAT'S ALL OKAY BECAUSE WE WON GOLD IN SWIMMING!! YaY

Tue, 21 Mar 2006 04:21:35 GMT

I've been feeling sick.

For the last....4 days or so my throat has been really sore. It kills to swallow, the right side of my chest hurts when I inhale and I am getting fast awsomely painful headache flashes.

I'm feeling more tired than usual and just feel like shit. It's even worse because since my throat has been hurting I dont want to eat so that's probably why I'm getting so tired :( So now I'm only getting 1 meal per day and even then when it's dinner time I wont eat much because it hurts too much to eat T_T

If I dont feel better by tomorrow, I'm going to see a doctor. And I had a look at the back of my throat, and it's not all nice and pink, it's all swollen and WHITE, like there is no blood going there -_-

DAMN YOU BODY WTF IS WRONG!?!?!